Anesthesia

​An autobiographical book in the style of Haiku/Renga, influenced by Julia Kristeva's concept of the abject and Freud's uncanny.​

The starting point of the project was "regulation", led by the father: the authority, the judge, the teacher, the laws. This is why I decided to dedicate the book to my father (although it could be dedicated to any father), inspired by Franz Kafka's Letter to His Father. This letter, written to his father Hermann in 1919, was an attempt to improve their fraught relationship.

The concept of abjection refers to what has been removed from the body, expelled as waste, and transformed into the "other" (saliva, blood, milk, urine, feces, tears, filth). Abjection destabilizes identity and disrupts systems; it disregards boundaries, positions, and rules, marking the limits of the human world. It is the filthy underlayer of society, where there is a relentless effort at purification. The inner face of abjection is pain, while its outer face is terror.